Art, Heart and Healing Assignment 2 Part 2

Like many girls I felt left out at times, like I somehow just didn't belong. I had plenty of friends but I was not the queen bee and this sometimes got in the way of forming true friends.  Not because I didn't want to but because as children we are often swayed or manipulated into doing hurtful things to those we consider friends in fear of being targeted ourselves.  All too often I was the one being targeted and the circle of friends I had come to trust turned their backs on me, knowing where they stood on the social ladder.  This is where this assignment comes in... I was asked to look back on my childhood and find a situation we wish


 we could change or make different.

 Because of where I stood on the social ladder I never really felt like I had a BEST friend, I had plenty of good friends but not the kind I could trust would stick by me no matter what.  This is the one thing as I child I wished for and the reason why I chose to paint this childhood dream. 

"The circle of true friendship is never ending"

The girl in the middle represents ME with the two BEST friends I dreamed of having as a child !!

Today I have an abundance of good people in my life who I consider great friends, all with different attributes and personalities. Each of them touching my life in different ways, ways that no one person could ever fulfill and I am thankful for all of them.

I really enjoyed doing this assignment.  Some of the old insecurities and feelings of sadness came rushing back, but with this came a greater understanding of why I never really had a "one true" Best Friend.  It wasn't because I wasn't worthy or good enough, it's something much more complex than that, something I'll save for another blog entry.  I would like to share one more thing with you before you go, we are all our own best friends and we should accept that gift from ourselves and hold it close to our hearts... I do :)